Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Hello 2009 ~1 hr and 25 mins more to go!















SAY GOODBYE TO 2008~


the year i had the most wonderful memories and the year i hate the most.


i'm bidding goodbye to it....





MAY HAPPINESS BE WITH EVERYONE IN THE NEW YEAR.
actually till now i'm still confused.
should i study or work?
i wanted to hate someone but i choose nt to.
dont u think its tiring ?
i'll let the past be the past.
so dont come and find me again.
i had enough of you.
i told myself.
i wont listen to all ur BULL SHIT EXPLAINATION ANYMORE.
GOODBYE MR - - -!
frm 2009 onwards. MONG WILL STRIVE FOR A BETTER FUTURE.
aiming for !
my own aims.
shall nt expose :X
people will think its bullshit
I'm BACK TO AUDITION. LOL
DS ARE FUN TOO.


Posted by Felicia at 6:27 AM

Saturday, December 27, 2008

i hate kana scolded.
SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS

Posted by Felicia at 8:14 AM

Friday, December 26, 2008


this is the planner my bro gave me
hello peeps
its 2.24 a.m now.
wth am i still doing here? haha
just finish my bonding session with lin darling.
she's moving house soon ler.
haix... will miss u de...
we went for lunch together in the afternoon and chit chatted.
after that went home to play majong with my parent.
had fun. but was abit slow cos she's new.
lol
lose abit , cos we play very small. my bro won lor.LOL
i just ate a cup of nissan maggie mee.
i say want to diet still eat. OMG!
punish me. beat beat mong backside!
hehehe...
but had fun today although i never go out.
tml will be working again.
hope sales turn out to be good bah...
not the economic is dropping.
i'm still planning for my future.
dun know wat to do!

Posted by Felicia at 10:22 AM

Thursday, December 25, 2008

CHRISTMAS IS GONA BE OVER.
my dear readers.
did santa came over to ur hse last night?
haha...
hope santa granted ur wish!
pray pray pray...
friday 24.12.2008
went back to woodland last night.
bought a log cake and mugs as gifts for cousins.
they liked it.
ran out of idea .
just give them mugs lor,
its useful lor...
buy toy = throw aside= waste $$
they enjoy the cake.
i'm happy too...
for 25.12.2008
went out with cousin n aunt to amk hub...
bought clothe for cousins and bro except for myself.
lol.
didnt manage to buy anything for myself.
cos the kids were too....
hahaha...its k, i'm the eldest ma...
but my bro bought me a 2009 planner.
its so nice.
i will upload a pic soon.
i meet him today.pass him the present.
saw him, DISAPPOINTED.
but its over.
HAIX..
i feel so.......
dont knw how to say la....
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i feel so unhappy.
i'm so UNHAPPY.
>.<
-_-
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0_0
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hope next year will be a better year for me
好想活的更好

Posted by Felicia at 6:19 AM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←
→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←
→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←
→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←


this is how i really feel ):
sorry for nt pickin up your phone call.
i dont have the mood to talk.
very down very down.


MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!
MAY EVERYONE GET THEIR PRESENTS.
MAY EVERYONE GET TO SPEND IT WITH THEIR BELOVED ONE.
MAY EVERYONE BE HAPPY FOREVER
JIA NEH~LATER

Posted by Felicia at 12:31 AM

Monday, December 22, 2008

i'm awake ler...
but going to visit my dad soon.
shall blog when i still have the spare time.
ton at chester chalet ytd....
alot things happened....
hmmmm..
i feel so upset , i dont know y...
haix....maybe its sort of my fault bahx.
i'm so tired.i feel like resting....
i hope my bro had a wonderful time with me.
i know i can be that better sister.
just hope u are happy whenever i bring u out.
cos i know how it feel to be so lonely nowdays!
to weiling: its okay...i try to overcome everything (: must be happy orh! smile my dear sweetheart.
to lin: he suspected of stone in stomach or hep a b or c? nt sure yet... must wait scan report. its k...everything shall be alright yeah

Posted by Felicia at 10:29 PM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

mr ken and chester
our christmas log cake

my present!


monopoly game




when my present was nt unwrapped




when everybody was busy heating up the food





there it goes






my bro playing dota






our fav majong session
i'm back home.
the party at chester house was fun.
we enjoyed ourself truely...
we played majong,monopoly,poker cards ....
mostly gambling.
but my luck was bad that day...
i lost $7 on majong, but managed to win back at poker somehow.
i took some pics, so let the pic do the talking later...hmmm..
i never took any pic of myself ): cos i'm FAT
my dad is in hospital now....
so i'll be going to visit him later.
there are so much things going on my head.
problems after problems.
who to share?
haix....nvm... i can overcome...

Posted by Felicia at 9:03 PM

Friday, December 19, 2008

stay at home and rott today! hahaha
i'm so in loved with bleach
NICE NICE NICE
i'm at 63 ep.
i told myself.
i gona be more independent.
i dont have to depend on anyone now.
Mingsheng, happy to see this and hear this? LOL
tml is the day for me to enjoy myself...
exchange present.
mini christmas party.
hohoho...
delicious food .must enjoy ourself.
buying alcohol also, bu zui bu gui.
but we staying at chester hse too.
to shi darling:hmmm, the cupcake look nice but i ate it . the taste is so yucks):
i see u so happy, i'm okay de la...when u need me just come find me^^ i will always be there for u....but dont forget me hor...celebrate someone bday ! u? wana join me? at clarkequay

Posted by Felicia at 6:11 AM

Thursday, December 18, 2008

hi everybody
cookie monster cupcake


strawberry cupcake


double chocolate cupcake
i promise to upload pic. dont let its cute design decieve u hor):
i'm feeling so tired.
so tired of crying.
i dont wana say why i cry?
i'm just sick and tired of everything
how i wish i can live happily!
lin told me, think of those people who are more pathetic than you.
you will feel better.
i know its true. but my heart just cant stop crying.
its painful its painful.
wake up mong! everything is over.
如果能睡了不醒，那该多好
我就可以保留那完美的梦，不用担心会清醒
即使梦是假的，那又何妨呢？
在梦里不会感到伤心
如果叫我选择，我不会后悔爱上你
maybe i should be more obedient.
let GOD help me plan my future.
i'm so tired of thinking what gona happen next?
really tired...
i shall concentrate on my studies.
the last 2 months.
i'm gona step into working society.
enter into a new chapter of my life.
i'm gona earn lot lot lots of money for my family.
buy house and car....
let them have a better life.
for myself.
i'm gona live better to prove to you i can live without you.
i want to lose weights.
so i started running frm tuesday.
but i skipped on wednesday.
but i ran today as usual.
its abit tiring. cos too long never run le.
i climbed 19th floor again.
my leg hurts at first.but its going more smoother ler.
i'm gona achieve this goal(:
i'm gona enjoy myself on sat.
play play play play.
at least this will make me feel better isnt it?
to mingwei: sorry , i havent started doing the project yet...give me some time...^^







Posted by Felicia at 6:12 AM

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

i'm here to blog...
its 1.28 am, i'm still here...
haha...crazy right? cant fall asleep.
but gona sleep soon ler.
hmmmm...
went to clarke quay today with ling and bro...
went to eat bkt .... spend around 20 bucks again...
ON FOOD LOR.
but i love the salted vege...
i bought the exchanged gift ler.
i think everybody will like it except for von.
not sure she's going ma?
but i'm looking forward to it.
ling and i had a great chat again.
about our future.
we say we gona buy one bungalow or semi detached ...
stay together in the same hse or beside?
is it possible?
she say we must be friends forever!
can we really be?
till now, i only got lin.(we been friends since pri 1)
long right? that why i cherish her.
i told ling,i'm not sure we can be friends forever ma.
cos eventually when we leave one another , as in nt studying in the same sch.
we will drift. but she promise she will call me and date me out.
haha... i hope it will come true...
we become closer during this holiday.
cause she will take the initiative to date me out.
people who know me know that i dont call people out.
haha...sorry that me!
i had this most awful experience.
the cupcake appear to be so pretty. but the taste sucks.
i spend 11.00 on pretty cupcake but yucks.
will update the pic soon.
to you: i really dont know what are u thinking?
u told me all those sweet words...but are they true?
are they true anot? i really dont know what wrong with you?
i'm tired. really. u can just disappear without saying anything?
you dont want me to be sad. but there u are making me sad again and again.
should i believe you ever again?haix haix haix.
currently my life is black and white.
i know its hard to make it colorful again.
how i wish you were the one.
but am i foolish enough to believe?
its hard to change a lepoard spot....
haix....
我还是忘不了当时的你
人变了就是变了
是我想太多

Posted by Felicia at 9:23 AM

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Hope that time can heal my wound
my christmas wish :
i wish that *you will be happy.
i wish that every couple will be happy .(no more quarrel)
i wish that those people around me will be happy.

i'm happy that we used to love each other.
i know you may love someone else now.
but i know i will not regret.
everything is my fault.
i made you changed.
its GOD will.
hope you will led a happy life.
you must be happy okay no matter what happen.
i know u are very happy with your gf now.
hope she can take gd care of you.....
u always appear in my dream holding her hand.
i feel quite uneasy ,
but its all fate.
fate that we know each other.
fate that we fall in love with each other.
fate that we break up.
but i just want you to be happy like you used to be.
bless you with happiness(:

i dont mind being alone.
although its hurt sometime.
but i will get use to it somehow.
trust me will you.





Posted by Felicia at 6:45 AM

Monday, December 15, 2008

went out with ling ytd....
to vivocity!
i asked her to company me to daiso.
cause i got lot of housekeeping to do.
spend alot again):
we had a heart pouring session .
love chatting with her.
i feel so good after saying out how i feel.
i always put everything in my heart.but she's the one who always say dont put everything in ur heart, i'm ur friend, share it with me....if not how to help you?
at least i know she's there to share my burden.
von quit donut again. we both quit! so she need to hunt for new job as usual.
the boss will be paying us on 22nd lor. so long!
i told ling that i hope we three can work in the same archi firm. but she say mr toh wont allow de.
then i say we interview different job, i be interior designer, ling be model maker and von be draughmen lor.LOL
but i know its impossible . so we try to work near each other and go for dinner at night.
to lin: srry about the buffet thing. u arrange it again. cos i really got something on today.
to weiling: i'm worry that i say something wrong again...its like my habit now ler.always apologise no matter what happen. i see you so happy , i'm happy too(:
its hard for me to be happy. i can only smile occasionally with my real smile.hope miracles do happen.
to ms: sorry for making you sick. i know its my fault): i'm the troublemaker

Posted by Felicia at 8:15 PM

Sunday, December 14, 2008

i'm back home.
today sale was alright.
sold 5 sets.
satisfed with it already.
von came to find me, i feel that we never talked for so long.
am i crazy?
i just saw her on friday.but i talked non stop when i saw her.
maybe i really treat her like my younger sister.
my collegues saw her and tot she was my sister. LOL
i know she may love her boyfriend more than me. but its ok with me now le...
hahahaha...
i think i'm okay to be alone now. cause i call her to go and find her bf.
i go home myself ....this reaction is unlike me right?
i used to want her to pei me do this and do that.
but i think i changed. i can do things alone .seriously.
i let the couple enjoy themselves.i dont wana be a lightbulb la.
i did medicure today.
for 10 bucks.
painted my nails with glossy bale.
so nice so nice.
i'm so into BLING BLING Stuff.
shut up mong ! lol
the donut boss want me to wash the uniform before i get my pay.
wtf!!!!
to lin: i try to change myself.... maybe u are right! i'm too into
i admire u..... u are so independent.
but i'm changing to independent too.
no more sticky mong ler.

Posted by Felicia at 6:18 AM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

i just finished work.
my xiao yi send me home today.
today sales was bad again.
managed to sell 3 . but two is nt i sell de.
haix
i chatted with my xiaoyi...
she scolded me silly!!!!
why am i so silly?
you know what i asked her?
i asked her.
me ask:xiaoyi, when my friends need me,they come find me?
when they dont need me,they just vanished into the thin air.
xiaoyi replied:silly girl, humans make use of each other? what there got to be sad about?
life is like this de!
because i told her i'm feeling very unhappy .
i dont know why i'm feeling so unhappy.
sorry peeps.):
its hard to smile like i used to.
to weiling, sorry too much things happened...
i just feel so unhappy.
i dont know what wrong with me actually.
i try to endure.
it better to be DONUT customer than STAFF.
HE SIMPLY SUCKS.
maybe i'm really stupid.

Posted by Felicia at 5:59 AM

Friday, December 12, 2008

whenever i see people around me happy.
i'm happy too.
you may see me smiling like a mad person.
who know what i'm thinking?
haix...
dont wish to say so much here.
those who are happy now.
i wish you will be happy forever...
i GONA QUIT DONUT.
i really cant take it.
sorry ):
i finished my A and A.
i finished my colorings.
THANK GOD!
how i wish i was abit cleverer...
i cry so horribly .
who care anyway?
i'm about to burst out.

Posted by Felicia at 7:18 AM

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

i had a dream again.
about him.
the dream was so real ):
he changed his nick....
maybe loving you was to let you go.
seeing you happy.
i'm happy.....
i just hope you were be happy forever.

Posted by Felicia at 11:19 PM

i cried horribly on the way back home after eating dinner with ling they all ):
i feel so terrible.
the feeling was like so lonely.
at that point of time.
i was like thinking.
if my family were gone.
i'm alone in this earth.
single single single.
why must they treat me like a tyre?
need me come find me.
dont need me just leave me.
am i really so naive?
am i a puppet to u?
do you really think its alright to throw me away when u dont need me anymore?
do u take my kindness for granted?
or am i really nt a worthy friend?
even when i did so much?
you say you want to quit after you found a new one?
have you ever think of how i feel?
do you ever discuss with me before going for a new one?
haix...
you made me think that friend are ........
i no longer trust anybody.
ling say we should protect ourselves first.
maybe its true...
it happen too many time.
i'm kana used too many times ler.
i'm so tired of being a virgo):

Posted by Felicia at 7:09 AM

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

my head is so pain now lor....
just finish playing majong with my friends.
lost $2.65...hehe
but its alright.not a big amount....
i dont know why i choose to let go
but i keep thinking about it.
haix....
i still got alot of work to do...
busy busy busy
no time for that la !
wake up ! wake up!
bf is more important right.
go for it lor.
i'm okay to be alone (:

Posted by Felicia at 5:36 AM

Sunday, December 07, 2008

i'm back home.
just now went out with my xiaoyi.
help her to sign one new phone line from singtel.
he sms me alot of times but i never reply
maybe its time for me to say gdbye.
i dont wish to.
but i guess that the best way to solve everything.
i'm so sorry.
i dont want it to happen but i know it had to.
the consultant at the singtel was like 23 years old only.
we had a small chat .
she had a 2 yr old kid.
i'm like.....
my life have to go on.
i dont wish to cling on to the past cos i know its uselss anyway.
haix...
memories are hard to erase.
i fall in love with dkny.

Posted by Felicia at 11:57 PM

Thursday, December 04, 2008

i'm so tired of believing you again.
haiz....
i'm so disappointed...
maybe u are really not suitable for me):
your words hurt me.
its damn fucking pain

Posted by Felicia at 6:03 AM

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

today was NO LIFE.
simply bored lor.
never go school tday.actually wanted to go take my brother cheque but
nanxin say wait till tml ...
he's nt free ...
but i still went out with my bro n von to doby.
window shop . dun sound like me right?
they dun allow me to buy stuffs. so got no choice.
i managed to finish coloring my bedroom ler.
ugly lor. but no choice. have to finish everything by dec 11,

my final coloring

i find myself changing to a person i dont know,i really dont know what happening?

爱上你真的是一个错

我令可从来没认识过你

Posted by Felicia at 6:05 AM

Monday, December 01, 2008


i'm finally can put more pictures....haha... use my bro hp to upload de...
late photos.
today abit emo.
dun feel like saying the reason ):
gave von the present.
i think she love it.
really?
i went home damn early today lor...hehe
that my scrap book. i spend damn fucking long to do but i dont know how to upload.LOL
http://s116.photobucket.com/albums/o13/angelicpolar88/?action=view&current=chaletmemories-Scrapblog.pbw

to shi darling:
hmmm, my holiday coming ler. can start to exercise.i want to slim down again (:
i need to rush my assignments finish by 11 dec.

signing off:

Posted by Felicia at 7:03 AM