Sunday, August 31, 2008
hihi...i'm back to blog.
just finish my comex road show.
tired but happy.
this is the first time i sold so many printers.
damn happy with my results actually.
i sold nearly to more than 100 printers for 4 days.
i'm gona earn quite alot bah.
finally i decided to forget.
from the day he never even sms me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
i know everything has eneded.
i erase all the photos.msn and everything.
NO MORE LOVE,
but hate for me.
for this few days.
know alot new friends.
enjoy working in the show with them.
somemore with my brothers also.
know a new friends call cindy.
we share the same interest and everything.
so coincidence.
really enjoy talking to her.
i want to thanks mingsheng for actually taking such a great care for me.
thanks for ur present.
its creative.
i hope i can accept u oneday.
cos u are wonderful.
but i need to convince myself first.
cos i really dont kno what to do now.
those friends who dun even remember my birthday.
i fucking thanks them.
i will remember who u are.
Posted by Felicia at 9:53 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
his nick change.maybe he's happier with his life now le.
haiz.....
just hope u will be happy forever k.....
take gd care of urself.
u will never get to see this forever.
but i just want to see u happy forever!!!!
he didnt get to work with me.
i'm so stress. damn stress now.
haiz.
hope everything will be okay tml
my test n my work.
so stress.
hao fan hao fan ah.
haiz.
my birthday is coming,
but i dont feel any joy at all.
maybe i wont feel happy forever.
haiz.
Posted by Felicia at 7:18 AM
Monday, August 25, 2008
CONFUSED AND CONFUSED.i really dont know wat to do.
i really dont know should i try or not?
i like but i dont have the courage to go for it.
can u wait for me?
sorry to hurt u so much.
i didnt want to be unfair to u.
i need sometime .
to forget everything completely.
can u love me forever?
my test results sucks: 67/100
haiz
Posted by Felicia at 7:47 AM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
taking pic at chester hse before going for bbq.hehehe^^
that me again
my birthday cake frm wl/candy n huishian
the night scene near marina square
the fire works
its so pretty !for sat, hmmm.... celebrated my birthday with linz on sat....
dun know whether to say i had fun or....
abit weird bah....cause everything was a mess.
it was raining almost the whole day...
my whole routine was like mess up lor.haiz.
my bro was with me to help out carry stuffs at chester hse.
took cab down , mingsheng waited for me for 1/1/2 hr. then
he started complaining. actually i wanted to...........
but after that....i was damn angry............
everything was like so idiot......... so angry....
angry with the weather. angry with ms tooo.
we set up the whole thing in a raining weather.
everybody was drenched and muddy. DIRTY.
i hate that. but no choice.
we were the first if i dont count mingsheng bah...
after everything was well set up like the tent and fire....
it was still drizzling. my leg was so soaky.
i called my von to buy shoe for me
then she bought!when ling friend came and von came too.so happy to see her.
she bought me a big present. shall post it in friendster. hehes.
ling friend bought me a chocolate with a word HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON IT.
mingsheng gave me the present earlier on. i didnt open it. but after a few hrs
he insisted. so i opened it up anyway. he say it was a small one . another one will
be given on my actual birthday. LOL. when i opened it, it was a blue dolphin piggy bank. furry de. very nice to touch .... it was cute too. i thanked him too.
he said he wanted me to save more money for our future. i was shocked.
but i appreciate. because it was blue. hehehe. i love blue stuffs.
everything go on as usual. just chit chatted throughout the night but
they didnt ton throughout. they left at 4 plus a.m, but me , von , xiaoben n daben n brother managed to wait till the first bus and went home. i was like damn tired lor. but sort of enjoy myself. it the first time i managed to ton through the night without sleeping. forget to mention, he send me sweet sms but i dont know whether shuld i or shuld i nt? u r really good.
but sometimes i'm angry with the things u do.
how i wish u can always be so mature in ur thinkings.
whatever i do is gd for u.
hope u can understand.
for myself.
i dont know how long i can take to totally forget him.
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
my birthday is coming.
but i need to work. bloody HELL!
for myself.
i dont know how long i can take to totally forget him.
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
my birthday is coming.
but i need to work. bloody HELL!
Posted by Felicia at 5:15 AM
Friday, August 22, 2008
i'm so confused
haiz....really dont know what to say.....my heart really damn pain for u.....
i know how it feel....i went through all these..... its hurts alot.
my dear girl, u must be strong....everything will be over soon.
u can find a better one.
i really want to know why must guys be like that....
i saw two examples today. it hurt. it bloody hurts....
should i still believe guys? are guys all the same.
i'm so pain. really pain! my heart hurts
today was rather boring but excited in my little heart.
went to see firework.... went out in the noon.
i tot i was late but in the end, i was early.
meet ling they all at 1.30. but they were late.lolz
hmmm..then proceed to cityhall(marina square)
dicuss wat to eat, in the end , end up with new york.
ate fish pasta...($12.90) quite delicious.but was damn full lor.
but very creamy leh....hahahas...after that went to walk walk lor....
then went to the floating stage there to book place but it started raining.
lolz...so ran into the cafe call sourpuss to sit down.
then after that ling friend came.... started chatting , and the rain started to become smaller....
i feel so left out whenever they come...haiz...no choice....
candy is ling best friend....so i was like alone when they chatted...
had little idea on what they are talking...so never really interfered that much,
people wont want to share with me either bahz... haiz...
then i just listen and listen...never really talk alot.
i just come to the point.
saw the fire works...was damn nice....
15 mins. how i wish he was there with me. but all sort of reasons.
haiz....maybe his aunt is more important bah....
after listening to wat chester and ling story. quite true.
haiz....but should i believe ma? i'm damn scare.
so many examples for me to see.
i really dont know what to do.
but i really want to say i enjoy the firework...
its late now ler. shall upload some pic when i reach home. (:
my dear girl: be strong,i will always be there for u! happy 20th birthday to u.
Posted by Felicia at 9:56 AM
Monday, August 18, 2008
WHO CAN STILL REMEMBER MEWHO CAN STILL REMEMBER 30.08?
Posted by Felicia at 8:12 PM
hmmm.....am i a light bulb to u....
maybe i'm bahz
i shall be clever and dont get into ur way! hahahas.....
i scare someone dont like......
mong is so troubled.
really fan........
work,sch,and him.........
dont know where to start.
dont know where to end too.
what to do?
the day is coming!.
i really dont know wat to reply?
i'm so confused.
i'm so scared.
i'm so tired.
hao fan hao fan ah.
who can help me? who can save me?
ling,chester,mw and ken gave me the first bday present! hehes....
my first present ! chester say its bikini. but i dont believe! dont sound like it when i shake.
i guess suppose its something that will break. cos i hear the sound.LOL!
sometime i'm thinking.
to mingsheng:
i really like u .
but i'm afraid of falling down.
afraid of love.
i really want to accept.
but i'm scare of the same old tragedy.
will it happen again?
can u really love me forever?
can we be happy forever?
can we last forever like wat u say?
i really dont know what to do?
i like u. but i'm afraid.
I"M A CRAZY GIRL!
Posted by Felicia at 7:51 PM
Saturday, August 16, 2008
i hate canon.i hate my life.
i hate all the idiot customers.
i hate patrick.
shit shit shit.
i hate my job.
i want to change job.
i hate him.
i hate so many things.
i hate my fucking friends.
I"M SO TIRED OF EVERTHING.
can we be happily ever after......
i'm really tired ):
i dont want to remember this name.this person.this place.
i sold 4 only . lin brother sold 30. OMFG!
Posted by Felicia at 9:06 AM
Friday, August 15, 2008
hmmm....
feeling quite weird now...
actually i really start to like him ler.....
he damn sweet and nice.....
so cute lorrrr............
the way he talk and react...............
but i'm still scare !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feeling quite weird now...
actually i really start to like him ler.....
he damn sweet and nice.....
so cute lorrrr............
the way he talk and react...............
but i'm still scare !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bought new clothes for my bbq!!
hope my birthday is gona be a happy one?
can u do it mah?
i think i really fall in love !!!!!
Posted by Felicia at 7:46 AM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
i'm still confused?is this love or like?
or is this care or dote?
i really dun understand myself ):
did i fall in love or fell out of love?
he say that i dont care, what for he cared?
i'm like wtf.........when did u ever care? since the day we break.
u fuckin never care for me at all....only quarrel with me is all u know.CBB!
Posted by Felicia at 8:46 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
i'm back to blog today! currrently at sch lap now...going to start my flat dev 3th piece,
waiting for ling to reach sch.....this is her place...
heheh, my com no internet de...lousy de right?
chatted with mingsheng ytd....hmmmm....
i think i really start to like him ! but at night i will still think whether can we last long if we
start a new relationship...although he say he will love me forever....but i dont believe all those
sweet talks de.....it happen so many many times....so many examples for me to see.
MING SHENG CAN U REALLY LOVE ME FOREVER?
prove to me la....hehesz..... i wonder will u be able to see it?
haha,i cried ytd night..... i still think of him....but i know he wont know....and he wont be bothered
to know.....he's enjoying with his poly friends bah....haizzzzzzz
mingsheng really treat me very gd....but no matter how, i still feel he's just a boy....
haizzzz....can change the way i think ma?
memories are so hard to erase arhhhh....
can u give me happiness ma?
Posted by Felicia at 6:28 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008
i been writing a real diary...so will not blog everyday....went to watch money not enough 2.....damn nice....
cried alot....think of alot of things....
i think kin ship is important....
we must love our parents..... before its too late.....
i really appreciate what they do for me.....
muacks....thanks alot.... love them...
i give the show 8/10.... nice one....
Posted by Felicia at 8:01 AM
Friday, August 08, 2008
all the best to u.....i'm like so sad out of a sudden....
i know seeing u find ur love one.....
i will be happy for u....
hope he can take care of u ba....
i'm gona be alone again.....
Posted by Felicia at 5:20 AM
haha...today is 08.08.08.... special right?
purple valentine day! too bad.... i cant be with the person i love the most....
or even the person who love me the most....
but my von did.....so sad.....
but nvm....i had my gd time before too....at least i exp valentine before....
that the most memorable one bah....although i have to forget but i wont for that...
so went to yishun for charity sales.....never really sold anything....hahas...
saw kel ng and friends.... then walked to yishun ite together.....chatted on the way there....hahas.....weird right? never talk then suddenly bc of that day de msn ... then we started talking again.....i'm weird actually....
but who knows.....
sometime when i start to care about someone.....he can ignore me back....HAI.
bastard isnt it.....argh....dun wana care liao.....tired ler.....
just hope to enjoy my life now....buy and buy and buy things....
today bought two books frm popular and two new clothes from hang ten...
got skull de....so cute lor .... another one is the flower design ....very sweet....
i'm still fat .....but keep kana scolded by my parent.....they going genting today....
hope can buy more clothes for me lorr.....
going to take my bursary today.... $200 for parent and the rest is for me.....
shall upload my pic later......
but i really dont know ...... why my love life sucks so much.....HAI.....
i dun want to think....but.....
why must he be like that? keep assuming things that never happened...
he choose to leave me....yet he cant allow someone to love me?
i did so much for him but he just leave me behind , so cruel isnt it?
how i wish i can enjoy my birthday this time.....but i guess its hard....
who the hell will remember? i dun even he remember.....
HAIIIIIII..... although he hurt me damn much.....but i still want to wish him well
happy forever bah.....
Posted by Felicia at 2:46 AM
Thursday, August 07, 2008
i'm SO FUCKED UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP now.............CBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate my rep................
i never hop job bc of him....
but he like that say me in front of junior..........
never even save face for me.............
fuck ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.............
i hate guysssssssssssssssssss................
Posted by Felicia at 6:18 AM
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
i'm so emo nowdays....sry people who read my blog .... will sort of make u all feelupset too...i didnt want to de....haiiiiii....
i really feel like letting go ....but .......
maybe i just want him to be happy bah.....hope u can get into uni and be happy with ur new gf....sry for the past.....
i'm real bad ba.......
today was being laughed at durin lunch time.....maybe i'm real ugly n fat....
even a pig also dun want me ............. HAI!.... depressed.....
von getting a new bf...... she's leaving me ......... she's throwing me behind....
chatted with lin, she say i'm nt as cheerful as before.....
haiiiiii........things had changed.....
why can i find someone i truely love?
i'm so UGLY, i'm so sad.....
nvm,no matter wat.... i will always pray for u....to be happy and safe....that my
biggest wish ..... cos u are the person i love the most..... must take care of
urself.....
Posted by Felicia at 6:46 AM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
saw the message he gave me.....my heart is extremely sad and emo now....
why u choose to let go and come and let go!
haiz.....
maybe we are really not fated to be together....
but i still think of u no matter how u treat me?
what wrong with me? haiz......
CAN SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THE AGONY!
Posted by Felicia at 8:49 PM
hmmm....my friend starting to like someone ler....she gona leave me alone...heartless girl!
if u do that, i make sure ur bank left $1 ....hahaha...i know everything frm u hor....
lol!
mingsheng going oversea ler, abit sad....but what can i do? what should i do?
sometimes he make me too tired to believe in love!
is he too young for me? i think in appearance, he look like my brother but in the heart, i'm more like his sister bah. i cant really feel the love from him yet......haiz....
when can i really find someone i love!
this two days at work, know more friends, understand the world more....
but............
sold 9 printers together ! i'm gona try to earn more this month!
Posted by Felicia at 7:29 PM
Friday, August 01, 2008
why are all my friends playng me?
i'm freaking upset......CBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB ah...why must people treat me like a fool.....
first one is him, second one is her......i'm like dot dots..............
am i really that bad? to make people treat me like that....
i'm so tired.....
cant i have some trusted friends? haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii