Sunday, November 30, 2008
i think i finally let go everything ...
had a new friend (epson)
we talked alot...
it started with horoscopes first.
he actually dont trust de...but after what i told him.
he thinks i'm so SHENG la. can see through him.
he say he's shy.i'm like LOL.
i just knew him for the second day. but we were like close friends.
we shared everything. mostly about his ex.
he's a capricorn . same like mr lim n my bro.
i dont really care alot about my past anymore.
i must learn to be happy.
smile mong!
i must learn to be happy like i used to be...
dont think about someone who dont bother about u ler la.
i know i made it ler.
finally after 8 months.
i finally let go completely.
i will be independent now.
i can survive alone.
hahahaha....
i sold 3 printers ytd actually.4 for today.
business was quite gd.
actually got 5 de...
but my mx850 must wait....
i'm gona count my timesheet soon.this month for sure over 500
minus cpf ler lor.nt sure how many percent ?
tml is my trial test...
gona draw my kitchen.
jia you jia you orh....
Posted by Felicia at 6:33 AM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
i just finish bathing not long ago
today sale was poor poor poor ):
can u imagine again?
i sold one only. stress sia. best denki promotions is damn good!
59 for a all in one printer. i'm like wtf.
i lost two warranty card again. bleah.
i really got no idea where it went to, i search for all my pockets but....
mr lim gave me a surprise today...hahaha...
he came to fetch me home today.
indeed sweet of u...
we had lunch together with wen cong.
my new epson friend.LOL
hmmm...
thanks for sending me home today.
appreciate that.
suddenly i had this sweet feeling when i send u off ...
its the similar feeling i used to had..
but hope it can last....
i wana be with you.
ai ni hao xin fu...
i wana be with you.
ai ni hao man zhu.
i bought something for von.
hope she like it.
we are graduating soon.
everything may change.
depend on fate ler....
Posted by Felicia at 8:01 AM
Friday, November 28, 2008
i'm back home~~~
i'm so tired.
i'm like getting sick):
whole body aching .
was late for school today,never went for theory .
but went for p.e instead.
banoe say i need to retake my broadjump n sit ups.
she say my run was GOOD.
i need to buck on and practice this holiday.
i gona SLIM DOWN AGAIN.
trust me. my motivation is back.
people keep calling me ah pui now. although i may look happy on the surface.
but inside my heart i'm crying ):
but its k...they happy can ler. i dont mind being the sad one bah.
the o level results are releasing soon~~
i'm yet to complete my kitchen and the new bedroom is coming up.
arhhhhh.....
i'm gona start exercising this holidays.
who want go gym with me?
lol.
lin is moving house ler...sad...will miss the time where u come my house and ton at night.
now we gona be far away frm each other.
recently never really talk alot.sad sad sad
i busy, u busy bah....
today chit chat alot with boss ...
he always make fun of me.
dont knw its gd or bad bah?
he say that if u keep thinking you are sad, no matter how happy you are!~
you wont feel happy at all...
he say dont make urself unhappy over a man....
he wont bring happiness to you even if u two really get marry.
money is more important.
is happiness or money more important guys?
i really dont know how to answer myself?
i'm like so glum these few days....
dont know why...
quite lonely.
but.....
nvm....slowly slowly i'm gona forget....
its getting more blurr and blurr ler...
Posted by Felicia at 7:16 AM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Quite long never blog ler?
got miss me?
sry , was damn busy with my stuffs.
working and sch works.
hmmmm
i shall start blogging about what happened to me these few days.
i went for my ahkim chalet frm fri to sun.
as usual.work at donut shop on fri , went to the chalet after that.
can u imagine? i reach pasiris at nearly 12a.m
von promise to sms me while i was on the way there but she didnt...
quarrelled with her over this lor.
but never mind. its over ler.
during the chalet, recalled alot of things about the past.
but managed to walk through it.
i know everything had to come to the end.
i enjoyed myself like a queen there.lol
my cousins were all like serving me. LOL.
they bring food for me. let me sleep on the pillow cause normally chalet is hard to
sleep without a pillow cos there isnt enough lor.
but i was late for canon for two days so the coming sat and sun.
i have to report early lor.
but its worth it la. cause i had a bonding session with my da gu and cousins.
we talked about feng shui and play uno cards with them.
actually they keep pestering me not to go work and take a day off.
but sorry i really cant!
i gona finish my project asap.
i'm like stuck at my elevation ler...
let not talk about mon .
forget about what happen that day.
but i remember what happened on tuesday.
we decide to held our donut sale today.
so we went negotiating with my boss about the prices .
but firstly we went to far east to buy von black shoe.
went to doby daiso to buy those materials for donut sales.
spend 10 bucks on it.so mr chester paid all first.
then went to negotiate with my boss about everything.
my boss keep making fun of me. was abit pissed off. but i cant do anything at all):
sad sad sad
hmmmm....
so what happened today.
started the donut sale today. we managed to sold 500 pieces. but never really earn alot.
paid my boss the original price.
i tot it was going to be very popular.
but nobody was really at school. so never earn alot.
minus taxi fee and those materials ....
we only earn a few dollars ba....
so after everything , i went for my work at raffles city.
it was fun.
i didnt really work alot and i get to have fifty per day.
much more easier than donut lor.
to the person who knw who i'm refering to bah, hope u isnt so clumpzy ba.
i really dont know what wrong with you?
dont you think there something wrong between both of us?
dont you feel tired?
you really love me? i doubt so.
tell u something. i dont even remember when was the last time i met you?
its like so wtf lor.
haixxxxx....i really dont know what to say.
maybe i have to wait for u to grow up bah.
this is a reminder to myself.
maybe like what he say. if i dont get into a relationship. i wont bring unhappiness to the one i
love. so i rather choose to be single cos i dont want to hurt the person i love.
cos maybe i'm too stupid.
why am i a failure in everything? haix...
i really hate myself. but i cant help it.
if i can choose again. i choose not to fall in love with him cos i didnt want to lose him as a friend
but its all too late to apologise.
take care of yourself. but i know you will never get to see it .
i shall stay single for the time period.
although seeing my friends saying about their bfs really hurts,
but that my life. GOD gave me this life. i cant change it anyway.
i'm destinated to walk this path.
Posted by Felicia at 7:28 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
i'm going for work frm 3-10 today....
weiling say she's gona find me today to buy donuts...
haha...
Good New for today!
i pass my 2.4 run.
can u imagine?
i'm the first girl to finish 7 rounds in my sch.
the teacher n my friends are shocked.
i took 15.15 to finish...
i was quite exhausted after running the 4th rounds.
but i did my best by not stopping.
i'm gona start to jian fei again ler..
cos i think i'm still fat lor...
GANBAETTE MONG!
von say i got no determination in alot of things.
i gona prove to her once again.
i asked pat to advance my pay to me.
he say tonight he will.
hope he keep his promise.
but i think he will forget de lor.
everytime also like that de la.
i'm going chalet till sun.
so will not be blogging .
haha...
hope i enjoy myself.
actUally not much la...
cos need to work.
i got no choice...
my cousins want me to go and my bro...
bringing my lappy over.but not sure got wireless ma.
see how first lor...
will update asap...
bye .take care!
i'm gona prove to you that i can slim down.
call me pig as u like.
Posted by Felicia at 9:54 PM
arrghhhhhhhh....my autocad died on me today....
i wanted to start my project elevations....
called mingwei... never pick up phone...msn offline ! argH!
i dun have the serial no.
i cant do anything.
thanks esther lao gong !
for ur help.
i know u cant see it anyway.
hmmmm.
i'm going chalet tml...
with my relatives and bros.
but i got to work....
i need to bring lot of clothings there again.
tired sia...
tml nafa,
gona run real hard too.7 rounds in school leh.
lol.
had a chat with ms.
hmmmm...
i really hope u can change.
cos i'm really tired ler.
i dont know what to say and do anymore...
just try your best bah....
ganbatte!
i need to finish alot things.
i need alot of money.
bloody shit la.
Posted by Felicia at 6:39 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
never blog for one day huh? or two...forget ler
never go count la...
hmmm...
these few days ,all i can say is work and work.
haiz...keep kana say by the yujie and boss.
fuck lor...
nvm...
maybe i'm really slow ba.
if i still feel unhappy.
i think all i can do is quit ba.
i can find another job any time.
i'm tired of kana say.
i always face this.
why i always kana say?
fuck la.
haiz.....
i know i'm slow la.
cannot change de right?
my hands is so painful lor.
keep wash this wash that.
bleah):
my canon pay still haven come.
i'm so piss off.
i have to keep borrowing frm people lor.
idiot de.
if canon never delay.
i wont have to take up another job and kana say lor.
圣诞快来了。圣诞爷爷，你能给我一个愿望吗？
就一个！
（拜托你）
Posted by Felicia at 7:03 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
hmmm...
shall blog about what happened ytd...
ytd only me and von went to school.
attended theory lesson n p.e class.
the whole lesson i nearly fell asleep
was damn tired lor but no choice...
so after lesson, went co-op do some deco and manage to complete it.
actually wanted to put pictures.
bluetooth spoil again ):
IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!
then rush to work with von ,reach there at 1.45.
i been assigned to liang court as usual
von stay at central to help boss.
when i reach liang court...was damn busy..
need to finish as many crepe skins as possible cos central needed alot.
we were like damn busy lor.
i stand the whole day.can u imagine?
frm 2-10....
they were like asking why u need to work two parttimes?
i just say i need more money.
FOR TODAY!
wake up at 6.45....went for work .
reach there at 8.05.
boss say i'm late.
i was like wtf!
5 mins also want kei kao with me.
i'm so pissed off.
but what can i say?
when we work till so late ...he never say anything.
late 5 mins kpkb.
i hate working for others.
how i wish i can open my own bakery.
cos i love this job more ...
i wana learn more new stuffs.
i can bake my own donuts.
i can apply my own toppings.
i hope boss will teach me how to make puddings soon.
i can make my own crepe skins(not good yet)
there are alot flavours for the donuts.
if interested can come find me!
hehehe...
we have rainbow,peanut,cinamom,honeystar,lemon,strawberry,honeydew.
wow...
i bought some for harvey norman staffs..
they were like saying nice.
yeah! lucky i never waste my money n efforts.
i bake them myself de lor.
sold 4 printers today.
7,5,3,3 dollars of comm.
damn tired. nearly fell asleep the whole day.
either on the way to parkway or after work.
today someone helped me.
i bought noodles at 3.50...
but they need to pay extra 0.30cents for take away.
my wallet was totally broke.
the person say its k...no need...
i was like thank you so much...
hehe...
didnt i say if we help people alot.
GOD will helped us also..
thanks...i will do my best to help people whenever i can.
i know 人在做，天在看！
so dont do too much bad things ah...
tml i got to work frm 10-10 again...
arghhh..tired tired tired...
sorry for complaining non stop.
(i'm wondering to myself.
i shouldnt have wasted your time.
i'm so unreasonable.
maybe i'm really not a good person.
if u found a better one, just go...
i dont want to make u so upset anymore.
sorry is all i can say.
and thanks for ur help!)
love is putting the person at the first place in ur heart.
love is giving the person a chance to lie to u but u trust that he/she wont.
我直能在梦里看到你，
但谢谢老天给我那一晚的快乐。
Posted by Felicia at 5:53 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
i'm crying inside):
Tired of living ):
i'm trying to add pictures to make my blog lively like wat chester say.
too much words will chase the readers away...
i wonder are there people really reading my blog anyway?.
nvm it shall be part of my life .
i shall blog about what happen today.
i tot there will be nafa today.
in the end kana cancel due to rain.
also good la...i was damn tired.
i redo my sit up=fail
i pass my inclined pull up.
i pass my shuttle run.
i pass my sit and reach.
i redo my broadjump=fail
although i fail. but i improved.
i'm happy cos i never pass more than two before.
after nafa...
was trying to persuade ling n guys to company me for deco.
we managed to complete the mini papercut for the door.
but it wasnt paste up yet.hack care le.
i did all i can ler.
i never even see those price tags up yet.
keep ask me hurry.
fuck lor.
made me skip so many lessons.
went to kem to eat.
the place we used to eat.
lot of memories...
but slowly fading off.
i'm used to it ler.
after eating,proceed back to classroom as usual
wanted von to company me to the toilet but she....
i cried in the toilet.
who bothers?
actually my heart hurts when u ...
nvm i got no time to care ...
u never even come liang court to find me.
then straight away go off ler.
haiz....
i'm so tired of getting angry.
i got no more energy ...
i shall let go...
for project.
done with first floor.
proceeding with second floor.
hope everything proceed smoothly
cos there isnt much complain about our layouts.
happy with it.
nice lor.
simple n sweet.
HAHAHAHA
i'm complimenting myself. BHB.
thanks ling n chester for staying .
at least i saw u guys (:
hope u like the donuts.
haha.
f0r work.
one word=FUCK.
wash n wash n wash.
my hands are damn rough now lor.
i got to put more lotions.
i promise myself once i got my pay.
i'm gona pamper myself.
buy stuffs for myself.
MEDICURE.
SPREE
PEDICURE.
FACIAL.
FACIAL.
REBORNING.
HARDDISK.
canon is owning me pay again.
i really cannot tahan.
i'm going to work frm 2 to 10 tml.
argh.
earn more money is all i can do now.
people may think i'm happy?
funny.
stupid.
lame.
haiz....
that not the real me.
how i wish there someone there to take care of me.
):
i'm always in the losing side.
no matter how much i try.
how much i give in.
people always take advantage of me.
haix.
GOD PLS SAVE ME
Posted by Felicia at 7:12 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
seriously sometimes i think IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME?
LOL.
I'M SO TIRED NOW.
just finish bathing .
worked like fuck today.
big rain.
got drenched.
i did deco today.
i need to finish the deco by tml.
deadline ler....haiz.
teacher compliment that its better than the last one!
we did the best we can.
i neglected my drawing again for the sake of this deco.
tml IS NAFA. wtf.
i'm not prepared lor.
although i run everyday,hope my stamina can last 7 runs tml.
i climbed up the stairs just now.
damn tired ):
its so amazing .
he sms me today(reach home ler must sms me)
its been freaking long since he acted so sweet.
hope it can last...
at least there someone for me....
i feel so heartbroken when i saw ling n von so happy.
although i love to see people happy.
u may see i'm acting like ^______^
actually i'm :( CRYING inside my heart.
nobody can see the pain i'm going through.
but i will pull myself together...
i will be working non stop till wed...
earn more money for a living.
i got no one to rely on except myself....
i can only pamper myself.
hope i can find a better one hur....
but i also want him to be happy too...
take care of yourself.(:
U WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBER BY ME.
me, lin and von were like chatting after our work at bk today.
they dont really give in to their bfs,
but they will pointing to me that i'm always the one that give in.
that why i'm the one who say sorry to him.
but i just want him to be happy?
is it wrong?
i used to love him like my life.
but he dont appreciate what i do):
maybe we are not fated to be together.
that fact is he never love me with all his heart ba.
but i wont regret ...
cos i will thanks GOD for letting me have the chance to be with him.
THANK GOD!
U MADE ME HAPPY FOR THE FIRST THREE MONTHS AT LEAST.
ALTHOUGH I WAS INDEED CRYING non stop everyday.
at least i feel happy before.
but hope this time. i can feel happy instead of sad ...
can ms bring me happiness?
just love me for who am i?
try to give in to me whenever i throw a temper?
made me smile when i'm sad?
lend me a shoulder to lie on?
stroke my hair when i'm sleeping ?
i dont wish to be the one to say sorry even when u are the wrong one.
i dont wish to cry to sleep everynight like last time.
i dont wish to get jealous when i see u playing with other girls.
i dont wish to tell lies even when i feel like telling the truth.
i dont wish to get hated by u when i did so much things for u.
i dont want to hide so much things frm u because i know u will throw urtemper at me.
i dont want to get left behind ever again.
i just wish to be love by you
like how the prince and the princess.
can i still be happy after he broke my heart.
can you still mend it back.
can promises be fufill?
can i still trust you baby?
dont be the person that hurt my heart again.
i'm freaking tired of lies.
i just want a simple life.
i just need a simple love.
money is not important.
Posted by Felicia at 7:59 AM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i'm here today.....quite early isnt it...
i'm going for school soon....
i'm so fed up with tat person.
is it all my fault?
fuck de lor...
all push to me...
teacher kp him, he come and kp me...
NOT A GENTLEMAN
i fucking hate this type of guy.
i will NEVER FALL FOR guy that bully girls...
you never put in any effort to help out...
all you do is whine and whine and whine.
fuck u~
i damn piss off by ur attitude....
pls check out your attitude.
i dont ever want to hear ur voice.
i'm gona try to finish the deco by today.
later going subway for lunch and popular
to buy those deco stuffs. i'm broke.
bloody shit, my canon pay also haven come.
arghhhhhhhhhh.
lucky i got one stable income after 15th.
hmmmm...
i'm working frm 5.30 to 10 today(:
with von ....
so happy...finally got someone to pei me.
i need to finish my perspective kitchen drawing by next week
A-A by two weeks.
project by feb...
i'm fucking busy lor.......
at least i wont think so much...
hahaha....
i know it still hurts...
but it gona end soon i guess.
cos no use remembering someone name when he dont even care anymore.
my eye bags are better after one night of gd sleep.
it might be the help of the red wine mask i bought frm tawian.
credits thanks to ben also !
Posted by Felicia at 7:06 PM
help me vote ...the poll is down at the bottom of the page.!!! thanks (:
Posted by Felicia at 3:14 AM
Monday, November 10, 2008
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i want this bag
dont you think its cute and sweet?
but mong is currently declared dried up.
i hope when my pay comes.
its still available yeah!
bless bless bless.
i pon school today....
was damn tired this few days.
FINALLY
today i get to sleep till 11 a.m
but i'm having a slight fever now....
haiz.... nobody to care for me..
the whole house is empty...
mum n dad went for work.
brother went for celebration for his last o level paper today.
i'm so lonely. real lonely.
that all i can complain ever since he left me...
but didnt i use to led my own life 18 years ago...
stop whining my dear mongy.
continue to strive for a better future will you?
dont let a guy ruin you arh....
it wont make u a better person...right?
hahaha...so i must endure the loneliness.
overcome the emoness in me. LOL.
i want to do well in my project n go poly (:
when my life comes to the end!
how i wish i can ask myself?
mong arh? did you really fufill any of ur wishes in ur life?
did u sucess in anything?
did u complete the missions u want in ur life?
i really hope i can answer myself.
YES I DID!
wouldnt that be wonderful?
hahaha....
i just hope life get better right GOD?
i hope u can protect those that are suffering in the earth...
give them some HOPE.
make them feel happier cos CHRISTMAS is coming...
give them happiness.
i want everybody to be happy(:
at least on this particular day.
me,von,ling,chester gona do a mini gift exchange on christmas eve.
LOL. less than 10 bucks.
that what we promised.
i'm gona try to celebrate his bday for him.
hope nothing turn out wrong!
HOW I WISH I CAN SAY
(DEAR GOD THANK YOU I FOUND HIM)
Posted by Felicia at 7:24 PM
hmmmmm.... today was tired as usual....):hmmm... went to clark quay and vivo today...
went interview with von....she was been selected.
we were saying that i'm her angel.... all her jobs are mostly sucessful bc of me.
i was like hahaha.... i see you got money, i'm also happy wat.... dont tell me i see u very poor i will be happy arh? lin get her turf club job...higher pay than all of us...hahaha.... we gona be rich man!
von going to join me .... at least got someone to pei me ler...hehe...if nt abit stress. i dont know wat wrong with me....every job i work in....i'm giving myself unecessary stress): i really dont know why. but i wish to be the best in everything. but sometimes its abit hard...cos i'm slow and unsucessful ... haiz.
i try to do my best in everything i can.... i wont let the boss have chance to fire me . okay? i made a enquiry on nafa admission stuff. they told me the min gpa was 3.0. but will subject to changes. so need to made a call at mid nov for confirm answer lor. hmmm... was thinking whether is nafa a good choice ma?
haha....i gona loan frm ntuc if sucessful....still got a long way to go...
better do my project and interior nicely first....hope GOD can give me a smooth path to walk on ...
i see other couples happy happy, i also happy for them (:
although i may feel lonely sometimes....hmmm.... i told myself all these today:
GOD plan all this path for u....
so if its meant to be urs....it will be urs....
if u two are nt meant to be together...no matter how hard u try...it wont happen
so i have to let go and accept my future....
so now i'm gona focus on my career and study....dont think so much already...
what done is done....what happen has happen.....
cry also useless.... complain also no use okay....just be ur best in everything ...
hmmm...
i dont know why me and mingwei always quarrel de ):
maybe i'm a bad girl ....always make him angry ba...call him today but ended up
being suan lor... i was like damn upset and angry ...but nvm forget it ba....
to von:
maybe i shouldnt have restricted u so much....
u found ur happiness....
u should go with him and enjoy yourself....
i will not interfere so much with u and him so much....
you must be happy together with him forever....
i know he will take care of u forever....
hope can see u two get marry.....
today i finally grow up abit again....i finally know what going through after all.
i will do my best to sucess in everything.
i really wish to go poly (:
Posted by Felicia at 6:41 AM
Sunday, November 09, 2008
i'm so tired...real tired....
haiz....
i got to survive,endure k....
sad.....):
i sold 2 tday....
donut was tiring...
learn alot things but................
von maybe workin in the same shop as me ler
hehe......
my heart hurts sometimes but getting lesser and lesser ler.
Posted by Felicia at 7:22 AM
Friday, November 07, 2008
to shi:must take care of urself k....
u can de .... JIA YOU darling.... our life will be better....(:
haiz....now its mine....
everything ended.... that night was wonderful. but but but....
i cried like mad just now when strolling downstair....
today was bad....
cried alot of time....
my friend upset me ):
he upset me ):
i upset myself too):
my life sucks.
i know i'm ugly .
i know i'm stupid .
i hope i can become prettier...
i really hope i can..
but its hard.
unless i die and change a new life.
i wana go clubbing :X
hahahaha....
who want pei me go?
can dont go until so late? reach home before 12.hehe
Posted by Felicia at 4:46 AM
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
hmmmmm.... i spend money again today...!but i bought something damn cute...LOL!
its a battery phone.those who come my house can see it.
it make me laugh non stop when i see my bro using it. ROARS....
i bought new shoe again too.... i'm wearing it to work and sch.
so long never buy shoe after i bought that hush puppy shoe that cost my dad 90 plus.... i bought my shoe frm bata...30 lor.....hmmm...heart pain.....that phone cost me 23 .....
hmmm.... i cant sttop laughing at my bro....HAHAHAHA....
i love new stuff.hate spending money cos i'm going broke soon again.lol
tml is my first day of work for donut....JIA YOU orh....
hope nth go wrong leh....hehe....
tml lesson cancel also...so i can go home and rest ..... this few days like not enough sleep ever since i came back frm chalet...
haiz.....the past just keep haunting me ):
Posted by Felicia at 6:03 AM
Sunday, November 02, 2008
The utmost pain in this world is not breaking up with you: It is remembering the love that we once shared, yet there is no likelihood to revive this love once again.I don’t remember the tears; I only remember the pain(coded frm shihui)
...dont u think these two sentences is so true....
when i read these two sentences....all the memory are back again.
it hurts, nobody can feel the pain except those who had been through or those who had really fall in love before...haiz...
maybe my was purely one sided love...
but i never regret falling in love with him before....
he used to be my future. but now all i can say he's my past ...
we are like complete strangers....i still miss him so much.
but everything have to come to a end....so all i can say is dont think too much...
just let everything be over and continue with ur UGLY LIFE...
i must tell myself this...a ugly duckling can never become a swan..
a ugly girl cant never marry a handsome prince ...
there no such word as fairytale in MONG LIFE!
i cant feel the way before ...haiz....
aihaotongkuah.
Posted by Felicia at 6:06 PM
hmmm....today was okay....was damn tired... but i sold 6 printers today.
hehe....happy. for eugene, he sold 2...
he was damn emo lo, but i keep making him pick on me.
we two damn crazy....chat about everything ....hahaha...
next week he's going for oki printer roadshow...me alone lor...
boring):
Posted by Felicia at 7:09 AM
Saturday, November 01, 2008
thank hwee yee for that wonderful night n dream!!!!happy birthday (: