Friday, February 29, 2008

I FEEL SO NEGLECTED ):

I cant see him for two days...
my dad are like complaining about me...
there am i feelings so lost without him, my dad keep nagging when i'm not able to pay him the money.....hp bill increased....being nagged non stop........
my head is like so full of " " so stress that i feel like dying ):
so unhappy now.........
why must all these happen to me?

Posted by Felicia at 6:42 AM

Thursday, February 28, 2008

WHY AM I LIKE THAT?
CONFUSED,JEALOUS,TIRED,SAD,ANNOYED,NEGLECTED?
I HATE QUARRELS.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.....
I HOLD ON TOO TIGHTLY....
THAT WHY I'M IRRIATING TO HIM?

wo zhen de hao ai ni ar......

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Posted by Felicia at 8:31 AM

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

yoyoyo! quite happy for a few minutes just now....dar send me home....
played dynasty warrior 6 with him just now....had a little fun and saddness...
when those words came out frm his mouth.....
but quite glad those sweet words come out from his mouth again....
hope u will be like that forever......dynasty warrior is his fav.....cost 85 eh....so ex to me....
but he like it can ler....actually quite fun to play.....
he's graduating soon):

Posted by Felicia at 8:02 AM

Saturday, February 23, 2008

I wont ever let u see i'm crying ):
wont ever let u know i'm sad....
i rather hurt myself !!!!

maybe i'm ill - fated.....because i owe u too much...
because i love u too much to let u go.....

i hate myself ! for being so...........

Posted by Felicia at 7:34 AM

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

i really dont know what wrong with me nowdays? i get so jealous easily.get so upset easily.get emo suddenly.....
getting into a relationship had really changed me ....the way and concept i used to have....
but dont girls get jealous easily? they have the privilege right? yayayayaya....
u guys will think i'm finding excuses for myself.....but i'm really afraid of losing him, like if he keeps on playing with this particular girl or...........then as time pass by, he will fall in love with her and dump me aside....its heart wrenching eh......... HAI!!! that y i'm so jealous over this..........
i dont really have any confidence about my looks or so ever.......... nobody likes me anyway......
exams is nearing........trying my best to study as much as poss.
not confidence about getting a 3.5 gpa...........HAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by Felicia at 4:19 PM

Saturday, February 16, 2008

I really dont know what are u thinking of?
i dont know what i'm going to think of too.....

so sick of it ):

Posted by Felicia at 7:37 AM

Thursday, February 14, 2008

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY TO EVERY COUPLE! INCLUDING ME !

i'm so happy with the surprise he gave me !
he cheated me ! but i'm happy.
ytd he stay over at my hse....he was like doing a lollipop bouquet...he say it was for his er sao...
then in the end...it was for me .....so sweet.he do it with as his heart (:
he made a card for me too.....
he bought me a necklace with hidden msg....one for him and one for me .... love it so much!
we ate thai express today! delicious, but it was damn spicy, even my stomach is still pain now. ):
but i really appreciate all the things he do for me.... i hope he like my present too ....
going 6 months soon...hope we can be together forever....

Posted by Felicia at 5:40 AM

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

WHY AM I GETTING SO EMO OVER THIS !!!!!

he's graduating soon ..... i cant see him so often....
i cant stop crying whenever i think of this....
the type of feeling is like so unsecure....maybe i'm too close to him...that why i feel this way....
either he go army or poly....two paths!
i cant really see him like i use to.... maybe i'm too selfish...but i really miss him alot....
although we always quarrel, but i still love him as much as i used to ....
he's my life....its like, i cant go to school with him anymore, no more cuddlings when i'm upset, no more eating sessions together with him, cant discuss co op stuffs/school works , no more personal time together(as in very little ler ba) no more going home when he used to help me carry my bag. he cant protect me at sch , no more playing and fun time together .....he will be real busy !
my heart is really aching every mins and sec....how i wish i can go to the same poly as him if he could enter ....
study together .... its so much fun and enjoyable.....
the remaining days,how i wish we could treasure every min n sec....i miss him alot alot alot....
why cant i let go of him, he need some freedom for goodness sake....but i'm tieing him up! i cant stop myself....
valentine coming! bought something for him, really hope he will like it....choose quite sometime with denise before deciding to buy it.....
even if we break off, i dont know how my life will turn out to be....cos its like i'm so addicted to him...
HAI HAI HAI HAI !
lao tian ye .....ze mo ban ? wo hao fan arrrr.....wei se mo wo ze mo ai ta.....

Posted by Felicia at 8:39 AM

Monday, February 11, 2008

i'm here to blog !

HAI.....cried so much today, because of "................." i cant bear to see him leave me ):
will miss him so much much! he's my life...
but when he say he hates me ............, heart was aching arrrr......
i try to amend ...
hope i can ba, may be what i done for u isnt enough ! hai....

HE BOUGHT A PSP today ! so nice loh.....felicia blue arrr....so envy!!!!
nice nice ar.... how i wish i have? but too bad....its too ex... ):

valentine coming.... hope he will like the thing i buy for him ba .....

Posted by Felicia at 5:49 AM

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE READING MY POST (:

been busy all these while, cleaning toilets, cleaning almost everythings ): so exhausted after every cleaning session !its like my eye circles are getting darker and darker.... SIAN DIAO !
now day i feel that i got no interest in chinese new year at all, not even those ang baos that i used to "hope for" maybe because the way people treat me made me change ba ! so it like quite tiring to see their face just to take that red packets from him or her....my attitude is like,i will say happy new year to u...if u want give then give, if not forget it....no more further actions from me XD.... only bought three shirts and one skirt this year....almost spend 180 plus...no additional money for other stuffs like acessories or one more skirt....sometimes i dont even know what the hell i spend on? bleah XD.....

its like quite boring although its new year today ! totally no NEW YEAR mood for me ):
dont know why? why my darling like so busy de? sms him also reply so little de...today is our 5th month anniversary ! just now sms him! happy 5th month ann........... but he also never reply back ... ROARS ! sian diao ! so its make me totally no mood for new year now ! hai....
life changes when u grow up....just now when real sis and real bro can fight ..... nevertheless couples who are not together since young , so life is really contridicting.... i also dont really know how to handle my life wisely.....

MORE ANGBAOS TO SPEND !
i want a PSP ! lol S

Posted by Felicia at 9:34 PM

Monday, February 04, 2008

hehe! time to blog, sorry was damn busy this few weeks.... skipped work for a few weeks because of chinese new year....do alot housework.....damn tired now.....helped out with both families.....mine and bh ! hehehes...hope can lessen his burden ba.....hope his mum is happy....
i just love him more sometimes only when we dont quarrel (: i love to see him smile at me....so sweet and shuai lor..... LOL! i'm so hua chi.....about sch work is must pass up two floor plan after chinese new year (: hope can finish lor.... two more days to chinese new year....very busy....need run lot places.....chester and mw also asked me want go their hse bai nian , need go ms/kel and denise hse also......busy (: haha....i dnt care about hong baos.....i care for friendship more now....and the one i love ba (: muacks....gona sleep ler....gd night