Friday, August 24, 2007
I finally meet my darling lin ytd...i know its quite awkward for her to meet bing gan(:
I REALLY miss u alot eh .... if still dun see u, i will cry..
thanks for the joy and laughter u gave me...
at least u two still got talk, hehehes....
he's good to everyone,so i dun think i do stand a chance ba,
but seeing him happy, i'm happy too (:
i can sacrifice myself de, if he like someone else, i will encourage him to go for it...
hope lin like the baked rice and garlic breads, and thanks for feeding me ....
although i feel like puking already...
but i feel so protected...
AM I HAPPY OR SAD NOW? HAIIIIIIII ):
Posted by Felicia at 4:44 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
lin, sorry my post is always about him,cos i see him almost everyday....
just that, i feel pampered sometimes,feel sad sometimes,
he's cold and sweet towards me....dun know how he feel...
i just dont feel like drping in the well, sanking deeper and deeper...HAI
i miss u so much,but gona see u tml (:(lin)
I LIKE HIM MORE AND MORE EACH DAY
but all i get is the cold treatments.........
maybe i should give up and let him find a better half ba :X
Posted by Felicia at 6:24 AM
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
i dun knw whether to feel happy or sad,after knwing everything, its like nth in return too...
i really like u alot.but the answer u gave me was devastating...
we just knw each other for 13 days.....
but when u are happy, i'm happy too (:
exams is coming.... HAIHAIHAIHAI
confused and sad now
Posted by Felicia at 5:58 AM
Monday, August 20, 2007
20 august 2007Posted by Felicia at 6:35 AM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
i'm here to blog,i did something naughty today ):
Sorry HEAVEN for lying..
i got no choice de ....its a white lie...
i went for firework instead of working today...
very sorry.i have to celebrate ling birthday no matter what (:
hope she's happy,cos she love firework...
we climb nicole highway for her, walked muddy grounds,kana force down by traffic polices, nearly break down the door, and many more crazy stuffs...
hope u are really happy (:
i just want to see birthday girl happy (:
sorry dad and mum, didnt mean to lie ...
something i'm happy is bing gan is very sweet last night...
HAI.but i dont wish to have any "sweet thoughts"
just in case something happened, and i cant save myself....
you knw what i mean ar....
i knw he just treat me as friend only.maybe gd friend ba....
but its good, and i feel bad too ):
WHY IS BINGGAN SO GOOD TO ME ?
HAIHAIHAIAHAIAHAIAHAIAHAIAHAIAHAIAHAI
Posted by Felicia at 8:15 AM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
sorry guys, being so EMO ytd....i'm back to normal again:X
thanks for ur care and concern...
mong will try to be happy everyday de okay...
i'm happy to see him (:
thanks for ur companion ....
he pushed the chair for me to sit today (:
he open the door for me (:
he never pang seh me today(:
he call me to company him .........(:
bad things ):
bullying mong,
use hand push mong's head,face(nearly),
shoot me,
Posted by Felicia at 8:26 AM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
lin, i 'm sorry, i really prove u wrong....HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIhe just went home today without companying me, i'm so freaking upsetnow, dun know why.. i just feel so heartpain...........lol.........
he just went off without saying goodbye,
i message him, he reply all with a word bb inside.........HAIIIII
maybe is beacause my friends keep making fun of me and him ba... then he sick and tired of it............
WHY WHY WHY WHY?
i tot he's the special one........
but it happened again ............
SAD SAD SAD
my heart is bleeding
Posted by Felicia at 4:51 AM
Monday, August 13, 2007
I'm so HAPPY TODAY !
first - today is my 100th post ( i haven break this record since long long time before i started blogging)......
2nd- ling finally sms me and talked to me (: she say we had a misunderstandings, not quarrels.
3rd- i'm so happy to have new friends (: ( thanks denise and binghuang)
they always company me after sch/teabreak and lunch!
thanks so MUCH especially bh, company me home almost everyday since 5 days ago....LOL
dont count sat and sun la....
and thanks for today (:
he company me after sch till 8 plus, pei me go see my ah gong, he was alone loh...sit alone at the voiddeck and read his theory book, sorry for wasting ur time although u cant see this...
A GREAT THANKS!
very happy (:
photos for today !
this is binghuang (:
Posted by Felicia at 6:45 AM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
thanks for ur companion(:its so good with friend like you ^^
i lost some friends, i gain some friends through this...
hope our friendship can last (:
Posted by Felicia at 6:33 AM
Friday, August 10, 2007
i'm here to blog, hehes.... first i'm now very angry, is like WTH la.... my aunt really no brain de , fucked la.i just sms her after seeing my ah gong finish, can come fetch me, she say i'm saying my ah gong die ler then come find me....what the loh.................i feel like scolding a lot vulgar....cannot tahan her..... my brother want me go woodland, i'm damn tired loh, slept at 8 ytd,
enough of her............
today had lesson frm 8 to 12.30, went sch as usual with jas they all, never really talked again!
what the point of going sch together! - i walked infront, then the three of them behind, chester went oversea ba, never really ask......
so on the way saw jason ,smile at him,and he waved back.....
then saw bing hua, smile at him, he never -_-"i was like -____________-"
then walk to sch loh, they were walking very slow, so i walked faster this time, then jason was behind me, he was quite shocked about our walking speed.....LOL.
then i told him loh. he just give a loud laugh....hahaha
then went to the canteen, saw siewli, then pay her back ten bucks...lol
then chitt chat while waiting for them, then they came , went back to class loh,
also nv really tok.then they say go eat breakfast, then i say okay....just went to eat loh
after that, lesson time as usual.....
then went cad lesson, saw brother on line, call him call me.... talked the whole day....
batt low again! bleahx. then siewli call, asked me whether want to go bugis? then she inviting other people also....hahahaha...then during lesson, she call me... i ask her where's she?
she told me she beside my class, i walked over and saw her,lol.... then we chatted a while,
after the lesson, then i walk over to her class, saw bing hua and chatted.... ask him why so dao at morning...
he say no loh, he did smile back, he was running late for class... lol
then asked him want go bugis ma? then he say okay....then went to find other guys first...
then saw mingsheng/huiyi/jason/dennis.....then went bugis together, on the way there, keep on chit chatting... bing hua so bad la....(in a sense of) keep rebelling my words...but i know he joking la... then i say what, he rebel what...he say the way i talk very cute....i find it very stupid myself...
but he's good la...after buying finish siewli things at brasarh...finish taking neoprints,we decided to go home, at first i tot waiting for mummy to finish work, but they were ready to go home, then bing hua asked them pei me first, to wait for mummy, then they say okay....im so glad la, then suddenly mummy call and say she okay liao...so i told him, no need ler, can go home ,,then they say okay..let go loh... then 3 of them take bus, 3 of us take mrt, then while walking to mrt...we were discussing where we stay.... then he say he can go home in north east/south... line... then i say i going novena...he say okay loh, pei me go since he can go toa payoh sit mrt,,, so in the end, jason pei dennis go home, he pei me loh....i was like feeling so bad, cos need him pei me...he say its okay la....lol...we talked alot....but he's younger than me loh...LOL!one yr old ............this few days keep knowing younger guys which are good la....
so we prmised to go home everyfri since he's beside my class only.... hehehes ^^
going woodland now ler....
lin , tml i going tamp for CIP!
Posted by Felicia at 3:39 AM
Thursday, August 09, 2007
BAD GUYS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!today was suppose to go out with ming sheng ...but in the end, went out with yulin instead, sorry mingsheng, company u again! went ikea....bought hangers,table lamp, ice cube maker, and light bulb, the lamp is worth the price. cheap and nice, come my hse can see...
my lin has one and so does me, we always buy things in pair....hehehes (:
we are besties, forever and ever right?
the angry part is lin bought a warobe, its 39kg ..... we finished buying and wanted to take a cab home , fucked, we queue up and finally reached our turn, the taxis uncle say NONONO, cant go in, he did nt even try loh.... wth.....
actually we decided to take london cab, but the security uncle say can de, unless the driver dun wan loh.... london cab very ex also...so we decided to try loh...at last one uncle wanted to fetch us, then we tried to carry the cupboard in, its was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO heavy,
nb, no one helped us loh, not i want to scold the men over there. no one came and helped seeing us two carrying like siao....KNS!!!!!
what the, type so long, then the post missing...lazy to type liao... sorry
these are the pictures i took for the day !
at last they finish the cupboard, but never stay to see la....but hope she like it....
hehehes,nice and cheap, good choice....
finally lin have a cupboard !!!!!!!! yeah !!!!
sry mingsheng never company u ! *but u cant see this*
-i want to watch rush hour 3, who can pei me?-
Posted by Felicia at 7:24 AM
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
today was GOOD, at least i dont feel so emo or sad, was abit during morning when i was walking to sch alone....
reached school at 8.05, was just a bit early for assembly, hehes, lucky never late, if nt damn embarrased....
saw asyura and talked to her, we are both alone, so i tag alone with her....
after that assembly started, went to the parade square, then came yvonne....
talked to her....started chatting, she was quite nice, at least there are people to company me -_-
did nt feel lonely after all.....then after all the sch song/pledge/flat raising and etc....
went to the threatre.... the show was starting soon!!!! so excited....
took photos of the performance .... there videos too in my hp, lazy to upload it la(somemore my hp no batt loh, if not can take more photos with them....) HAIIIIIIIIIIIIII
photos in the threatre:
after that the batt die on me!!!!!!!!!!WTF.....cannot take liao XD
after all the performances, yvonne told me there team building for co op shop, since i'm free , so i attended.... to my unexpectation, the people there are so GOOD LA, we talked quite alot, i was abit shy at first, first time ma...then i started to tok about a while, we played games, and i know their names, it was fun playing with them although we have to stand under the hot scorching sun...hehehs... at least i got more friends.. maybe i'm in charge of co op admin, nt so sure yet..shall see first....after that, one of them named weisheng asked me whether want to go bugis with them, since yvonne and aysura they all gg lesson so i agreed, we went bugis to shop and took neos...abit messy, sry for my bad scanning position...lol....
still got a few, but ugly la...so shall nt upload.....
it was fun knowing them, at least i never wasted my trip.....
it better to have more friends then enemies.....-____-"
to LIN : i want PSP too ! lol ( SHOUTING, i'm jealous )
Posted by Felicia at 6:05 AM
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
but at least i knw there someone that cares about me.... but upon seeing that message,tears came running....HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
bad things always happened to me........
thinking of the way they treat me last time,showering me with care ...........
but everything have change...........
i knw friends will not tolerate my attitude,i'm nt a gd friend to everyone....
indeed i'm bad
there nothing for me to do now..... friends drifting as usual
i really dont know where went wrong....
i just treat them as best i could...................
IF U GIVE ME ONE CHANCE TO SAY :
i really treasure u as a friend, if you going to let me go, i got nothing better to say!!!
going school alone tml.....celebration for national day....
HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII....
thanks candy for companying me, without u, i'm just alone......................
Posted by Felicia at 8:15 AM
i'm here to blog about ytd,it was quite fun ytd...
ytd was quite emo or wat ba.... about that thing, hai....that why my reaction was damn bad to people,sorry i cant help it... u should knw how it feel to be abandon by someone...so never really tok to them, we both never talk for the whole day, only talked to jas,chester and some others .....HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII....
lin and i are both facing friends problems..... why GOD mus treat us like that....
we both always try to give in, and this is what we ended up in.....
my heart is really bleeding inside ..... so went home early ytd, skipped cad lesson,i never even ate breakfast and lunch, so after skipping cad lesson, i just went home alone, walked to kembangan, reminiscing the past ... we used to laugh like mad .......but now, its no longer the same.... then went to cheer to buy nissan maggie mee and chocolates for us...went to lin hse, reached her house in half an hr time,after that chatted awhile, then decided to go minitoon since it so boring to stay at home, we decided to go cine to buy, but before that she brin me to try out new food at hongkong cafe, we decided to pamper ourselves after all the sad things that happen to us....
photos showing us in cafe :
after that went to find minitoon, but argghhhh, the shop is missing, we search up and down, and nearly turn the whole cine upside down, crappings...lol
SO I WAS VERY STEADY, we decided to go bishan just to fufilled her wish....hehehes
during the ride : camwhoring ---->ugly word ,lol
after that reached there, buy the frames and wanted to buy something for cousins, their bday coming ler, choose so long, at last choose two puzzles...lol(i'm a gd cousin) lol jkjk
after that dad call, buy beef noodle for him, then he want me to bring to durian stall, lucky lin company me,thanks a lot.... 
she stay over at my hse....wee~~~~~~~~~~ we slept at 3 am, so i skipped school again XD
if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling, i will sing to you and tell you i want to live my heart with you,
if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling, i will hold your hand and never let you go ,I just want to be good to my friends and hope they will be too XD
to lin ! i may nt be ur best friend, i just hope u will always be happy .....
Posted by Felicia at 2:10 AM
Friday, August 03, 2007
HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII............i think jas and ah wei really steading liao :X
somehow i felt lost...
i dont knw why, everytime my best friend or whoever that is close to me get engage
in relationship,i cant help but feeling so ............(dont knw hw to explain)
i know its being selfish to say that why cant they get into relationships..
i should feel happy for them since they found their love one...
I'm selfish okay... ARRGGGHHHH!
i'm filled with envy....HAHAHAHAHA
but jas never really tell me whether its true ant...
but seeing all this actions really made me think so ba.
i'm now keeping the memory we used to have...
hope u and ah wei can be happy together till eternity.
today was like,dont knw why....very moody in the morning,meet up as usual to school,
never talk...maybe its beacause of.... so never really talk, then chester asked why so moody...he say"you tired ar" i just reply no loh... then he just walk faster and went to sch, sry for the cold reply i gave u, i knw u cant see this anyway.we were like going sch alone anyway..nt much diff...ahwei and jas=last, me second last,then ling then chester leading infront... see ! everybody was walking alone...HAIIIIIIIII
i feel so weird sometimes,i knw i'm at fault.. i shouldnt have go sch with them,
couple=i'm a lightbulb ya...
i feel so lonely in sch nowdays...nobody pei me,nobody love me like they use to do...
as times pass by,everything dies off, last time i use to look forward going to sch
everyday.but now,all i feel is loneliness... HAIIIIIII...
i walked home alone today again:X
its my nightmare...lucky got lin talk to me...thanks so much!!!!
i maynt find the person i need yet..
all i need is the shoulder for me to lean on...
Posted by Felicia at 8:26 AM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
i'm back to blogging... i dont feel like bloggin sad stuffs, just wana say how i feel ba....HAI...to my lin darling: no matter how ur friends treat u, just remember ...mong will always be there for you... NO MATTER what, there's still mong to stand by you..
sometimes i feel really left out in school, it always happened,
in primary,secondary and even ite...
i dont know the fault lie with me or..... haiiiiii
maybe i'm too detestable liao XD
went home alone today... lonely feeling, cant help it...
the only way is to listen to songs...
felt so heart pain...
dont knw why.... HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
went to vivo with lin, she company me to pass up timesheets..
so happy to see her... clear all my unhappiness...........
took pics with her... so nice !!!
all i wana say thanks for being my friend !
LONELY IS ALL I FEEL